Que Sera, Sera

Soooooo,,,

Laptop dh rosak T_T

And I criedd; literally

skrin dia dh rosakkk :(

So tu la sebabnya kenapa kena guna fon even though tak suka pun sbnrnya tapi tetiba rasa nak sangat merepek skrg ni so here it goes..

well, tadi gi keluar dgn kawan. Luckily ada kawan satu skul yg duduk tk jauh dri rumah, klau tk mmg terperap dlm rumah tk keluar keluar la jawabnyaa.. gi visit kwn dia yg kerja dkt shopping mall tu n gi laah jalan2 cuci mata.. hehe

then gi picc!! that's the best part sebab tak ramai org pun time pergi tadi :) and finally hasrat hati utk gi PIBF tu tercpai gk akhirnya walaupunnn.. Act, nak beli buku lain tapi end up beli yg lain sbb tk cukup bajet -_-" adoyaii.. tapi tkpelah sbb buku tu pun trmasuk dlm wishlist jadi reda je la takpe lain kali boleh beli..

and hari ni pun rasa mcm hari pling mlg (tkde la mlg mana) sbb rasa mcm sume pakcik bas hari ni pms?? Hahaha.. taktau laa klau diorg mogok ke apa ke tapi yg pastinya diorg buat aku rasa mcm dh taubat tk nak naik bas dh lpas ni.. hehe

then, skrg kan mostly people of my age mcm tgh busy dgn scholarships n nak start life as a pre-u student lah apa lah kan, soooo,,

okey aku tk tau nak ckp mcm manaaa. -_-'

Alhamdulillah lah I've got an offer from a private college yg mmg offer course yg aku nak n dia punya program is kinda interesting to me buttt, rasa mcm ada problems i guess??

firstly, it is a private collage. So dia punya fees and total cost sume tu of course laaa.. emm tautau la kann.. and I have to find my own scholarships or loan sendiri.. which gives me a headache -,-"

Of course la dia ada link dgn mara n jpa but the thing that freak me out is I applied for jpamara instead of mara. Dia ada ckp yg mara offer lagi bnyk tmpt brbanding jpa but mara is loan while jpa is scholarship. However, a lot of things happened yg menyebabkan lastly I chose jpamara. Some of ye reasons are ada org ckp klau mara dia utamakan budak mara while jpa utamakan budk sbp and and ada org ckp b4 this yg klau mintk jpamara tu, klau tk dpt jpa maybe dpt mara?? I dont know whether all of these hanyalah rumors semata2 or whattt.. and skrg ni tetiba rasa nyesal (-_-??) sbb pilih jpamara sbb lately bnyk pulak bnda lain yg org ckp. Tak tau la knapa org sekeliling aku mcm kata better ambik mara than jpa yg menyebabkn diri ini semakin buntuuu,,, haishh.. -_-"

Lpas tu dgr cerita tarikh register dia bulan ni jgak? tapi tak sure and tolonglaa jgn bagitau lasg minute sbb ada bnyk lagi bnda nak prepare.. and the other problem is pasal tarikh test jpj akn overlap la kalau jadi masuk kolej tuu.. (tapi ayh aku ckp that's not exactly a problem)

So skrg mcm jadi x sure sama ada nak masuk kolej tu ke x walaupun dh hntr reply letter yg mengatakn aku accept. The main problem is all about the money. Betulla org tu kata, klau ada duit nak masuk mana2 pun boleh.. nak fly terus pun boleh walaupun result tkde la gempak manaaa.. yg pnting ada duitt. klau difikirkan balik kdg2 tu rasa nak je tolak balik offer tu sbb act aku pun tkdela nak sngt masuk kolej tu tapi program yg ditawarkan tu sangatttt laa menarik hatiiii.. pakcik aku pun ada ckp yg aku patut try mintk yg lain jgak sbb mungkin yg lain tu adalah lbih baik utk aku.. tapi tu laa, aku sndiri pun tgh pening ni.. nk tnggu offer lain pun klau dapat. klau tak dpt? And klau ikut plan asalnya aku just nk gi uitm n duduk je duiam2 dkt malaysia nih. Tapi haritu tngok nak masuk uitm pun nmpk mcm tersangatlah susahh.. bila dpt offer drpd kolej tu mulalah rasa nk fly walaupun dh lain drpd niat asal yg stkt nk duduk dkt msia nih. apa yg dpt disimpulkn, tersngt lah nervous dgn my owb future. Nobody knows what happen in the future. 

Segalanya diserahkan kepada Allah, tuhan yang Maha Kuasa. :)

He knows the best.

What will be, will be.