move on

it's already july, half of the year had passed. a few days left before i enter my college.

it's kinda ironic you know, well, i was very excited to go to kysb since march, had put high hopes in studying there. during the pre-foundation programme there i really enjoy being there and had a lot of fun.and when i didn't get the scholarship to continue my study there, i had done my appeal and a lot of other things with the hope that i could stay there since i really really love that place n the people n the environment and how i wish and always pray so that i could stay at the same place. and then, alhamdulillah i got the scholarship and how i was very grateful and was very excited to continue study there but it turned out i had also received other scholarship that gave nearly the same offer a few days before the registration day for the first one. and why i say it is ironic because it turns out that i finally choose the other offer, which means that i won't go to kysb, the place where i had put a lot of hope and had done a lot of things to ensure i will stay there. it's kinda hit me when i remember that one of my roommates once told us that if she gets the other scholarship, her parents will ask her to choose the other one although she doesn't want to and at that time, i, who doesn't expect at all that i will get the other offer since i've never put even a bit of hope in it because i believe that i had done my worst during the past interview, had thought that no matter what offer that i will get later in the future, staying in kysb will still be my first choice. but then here i am, counting my days before i enroll into another college while my friends are in kysb for registration. luckily that friend of mine didn't get another offer so she will stay there and didn't have to think about other choices. for once, i think that getting only an offer is such a bless, you know, it prevents you from having a headache while making choices. unexpectedly that situation happens to me. but i should be grateful right? not everyone was given a lot of choices. it just sad that i have to make choices in just like 2 days, no, to be exact 1 1/2 days which is less than 40 hours!! even nak solat istikharah pun cam hmm..

and now it's hard to move on :(

a part of me still in kysb still hoping to be there. sometimes i even wonder whether i had made the right decision leaving kysb and choosing the other path. the path that i don't even know how it will be and not sure what will happen to me. but, hey, setiap yang berlaku mesti ada hikmahnya, right?

I think i should just put all my trust in Allah, then. 

#betough #staystrong :)